To the guy hu so called replied to my post, hear this :
firstly , i may be wrong abt u being bz abt ur blogskins and im sry abt not noeing u too well
secondly, y shld u be confused when the answer is alreadi right infront of ur face
and thirdly i didnt ignore him, if i did i wld not even write anything abt him on the paper on the last day of atc, and i did replied wadever things he said during the camp.
i noe he is still waiting for me or wadsoever
i tried being frenz wif him again BUT obviously it didnt work out
i didnt wan to make the same old mistake again
just to let u noe
every single time i make frenz wif a guy and if i get too close and personal to him he can begin to even start doin stuff which i tink u shld noe and starts misunderstanding the whole just-a-fren thing.
81% of the guys i made frenz wif always react like tt
tts y im scared ok
i dun mean to start having war wif the guys hu do stuff just to force me to like them
i didnt wan to do it but u guys forced me to react tt way
onli guy i noe hu really understands the whole just-a-good-fren thing is Edmund
he realli can understand how ive been thru and wad msg am i trying to giv
and dun be confused on loving me or not
u dun realli have to love me.
we were no longer the gd old frenz we were anymore.
if u cant even make it to be my fren den how can u even tink abt starting a relationship wif me.
i noe,
u wan this u wan tt
sometimes those things tt u wan just dun come without hard work
life is not an ez thing to live in
gd things dun just come whenever u wan them to appear.
oya and this quote:
"if i had a little chance left or none, please be another stranger of mine"
wads up wif tt quote man.
so ure saying i MUST giv u a HUGE opportunity den i can be ur fren or wadsoever la
just let me tell u this
i dun like to be pushed around unnecessary
if ure telling me tt i must do tt just to be frenz wif u
den i shld say
4get it
those kind of ppl r not realli frenz to me
it is like ure forcing me to be frenz wif u or maybe even forcing me to even BE wif u
this is not a romantic movie wif 2 guys doin stupid stuff just to get tt one gal WHEN there r millions of gals out there.
this is reality
get real.
and i may image how they feel but nv realli understand how they realli feel
just let me ask u this
WHO DOES?
no one can realli understand how others reali feel except themselves.
it is like the teacher tells u tt ure top in class or somethin but u react like u dun care or somethin when actually u r jumping like mad happily inside.
so we have to depend on image and not understanding
unless u tell me u can read ppl's minds
dun come and tell me u can understand how ppl realli feel
if u did we wld be frenz by now AND u wld not have lost those other frenz u made b4
ppl make mistakes
no one is perfect
the real mistake we make is when we dun wan to correct our mistakes we did b4 and continue doin the wrong thing
i myself am trying to do wad is right and not make the same mistake again
i wld onli be a fool if i continue doin the wrong thing which wld make everyone miserable.
and i shall repeat this
u DUN have to love me
its fine wif me if those guys like me and all those stuff
but by forcing me,
tt wld be crossing the line.
and if u realli define the feeling u have for me as love
i wld have been swept off my feet already.
to me ur feelings for me is NOT love
its just a simple feeling called admire.
so u can stop trying to get me or anything.
those little schemes wun work.
there r many other gals out there.
dun kip clinging on the one and onli me.
im just an ordinary gal hu somehow happen to be the one ure attracted to.
sooner or later ull find the girl ure looking for.
and by tt time ull realize tt im not the one ure looking for since the beginning.
wad im trying to say is,
dun try to love tt someone and WANT tt someone to love u so much when she doesnt tt u start doin stuff tt might ruin ur reputation.
its not worth it.
love is not onli on 1 person's side
its a 2 person thing
if u love me but i dun love u den wads the point of tinking abt starting a relationship?
dun get me wrong.
i dun hate u
i just dun wan u to make the same old mistake i did.
its onli my job as a fren.
but too bad ure already losing me and wan me to be a stranger to u.
its fine wif me.
frm now on we r just squad mates or sch mates and nth else.
i'll onli tok to u if its abt NPCC or sch matters.
its just like talking for the sake of talking.
so u can 4get abt speaking to me abt other issues.
other ppl may still kip toking abt us ,
but somehow they will noe the truth and stop spreading rumours anymore.
i alreadi stated tt once u lose me its hard to get me bak.
if u realli wan to be frenz wif me again,
good luk wif tt.
Sayonara and good riddance!